The Reader, The Writer, The Sensational

Tears

2011-06-13T01:46:00.000-07:00

Lord,

Help me again to understand,

Why these tears are falling,

Why my heart feels like it's breaking

How I question 'what if'' everyday...

I can't explain this feeling,

Did you plan all this right from the beginning?

I keep praying..

I'm praying for peace in my heart

I'm praying for strength, courage and wisdom too

Faith pulls me through

Because I choose to believe

If things happen,

They happen for a reason.

A reason you have planned.

"I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord,

And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on You Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently, I will wait."

Lord, are you trying to tell me something?

I feel like I'm only hearing you

When I hear your music.

And When I listen, tears run down.

If this is our path of conversation,

I will listen.

I don't want to leave You

I know You'll be there no matter what

God, please show me directions on this path

Show me, how to show others.

Your words may have come to me in different ways

Forgive me when I pushed You away.

Remind me when I forget.

It hurts me to know

What it's taken for me to see

For me to listen..

I know that what it takes for others to love You

Will be a challenge.

A challenge I'm willing to face,

With your guide.

Amen.

Tonight?

2011-01-09T00:34:00.000-08:00

I've got something to show tonight

Something you don't know tonight

You just need to see to believe in me.

I don't know if you've got plans tonight

Just think about what we gon' do tonight

Maybe you'll be ready for what is right.

Cos baby I promise you

You will only remember this for one night..

Just You

2010-10-18T19:02:00.000-07:00

I've written so many of this before
How could I explain this once more?
I've never been good in confessions,
If only the words flow from my heart
to your mouth..

I've seen so many of you before,
Why would it be any different
this time and so sure?
You make me change my mind
Over and over again to myself
I lie..

You are nice,
Then you're cold,
Just when you smile,
Then you ignore..
I go crazy
I go crazy,
Thinking bout you..

Title after title of songs I listen to
And they all made me think of you
You sweet candy jawbreaker
What are you trying to do!

Hasn't been long
I'm wondering to myself
Is it possible
So freaking stupid
To even think about it..
But it's just you...

Online Journal?

2010-10-08T23:04:00.000-07:00

Okay I don't know what I am gonna write right now. Probably craps. I'm exhausted. My mind is filled with nonsense from school works and what not. Trying to figure out HOW in the world am I supposed to start my first COLLEGE English Writing Paper! I'm to supposed to draw a concept from the major I'm doing. I didn't have a clue until I went to look for my professor. She is one awesome lady! She helped me draw concepts and jhfroiuhurehoiuehfoeihf I STILL don't know how to start!! Stressing out with everything! Did I mention that already??!

China Part 1

2010-05-26T22:35:00.000-07:00

Have I mentioned how much I lurveee travelling?? I absolutely DO! Seeing places, tasting food, learning new languages, meeting people! What more could I want? I DO wish I had more money right now to visit every country in the world!

I was in China last week for ITF. The weather there was pretty nice. I kinda missed the sun when I was there. But then now, I miss the weather there now that I'm back here. ITF was held in Beijing! But the club was completely out of town. For those of you who don't know, Beijing is huge! There are like FOUR districts: north, south, east, west and each are like, I don't know how many hours away..

There's a tennis academy in that club known as 6th Sense Tennis Academy. Somehow owned by Justine Henin or something. We stayed at the hotel on the tennis site. More like dorms, but they call it Hotel... I thought I was gonna get sick looking at Chinese everyday cos of their typical looks. But it turns out in Beijing is different than what I imagined. The players are all really nice. I have to listen attentively to understand what they were saying to me because of their thick accent. Most of them - meeting me for the first time, don't know I could understand chinese. It's funny because they kept talking about me :P So I pretended I couldn't understand. They thought I was mixed-blood. Maybe cos of my hair color. And my big, round eyes. haha! I finally met Isabella! We've been talking online for soo long and we finally met! We hugged once we saw each other the day I arrived. Met a bunch of Korean boys. Koreans are just so cool. They're shy and quiet cos usually they don't speak much english. But it's so much fun hanging out with them!

I played doubles with a China girl. After my matches are done, my uncle's friend took us out to see Beijing! And yes, which means Great Wall and Olympic Stadiums! I did not HIKE up the Great Wall, I RAN up it! There are points where the climb is so steep, I actually felt GRAVITY. After descending, we went to the Olympics Stadium - every athletes dream to be there don't cha think?! Got goosebumps!

We left for Shanghai the next day to check out the Expo 2010. Every country in the world has their own pavilions to kinda promote their countries. The place is hugeee! But still every pavilion is packed with tourists. The day we went to the Expo, it was raining. We went like super early in the morning and walked until night falls. Our first pavilion was Espana! The first thing that came to my mind was RAFA! Queued for about half an hour just to see a giant robotic baby.. Imagine maybe 50 thousand people were there in a day, everyday. And every pavilion (30+ big pavilions) has a freaking long queue. My uncle was saying how it wasn't worth visiting the expo cos there isn't much to see and not much was offered from the countries' exhibitions. But I was having fun. Meeting foreign people that were volunteering for their countries' pavilions, speaking funny languages, taking TONNES of PICTURES, checking out hot guys ;) Speaking of hotties, I met Christiano Ronaldo's twin! Well, not exactly his twin, but sure does look like him, only he's younger. I swear, his body, his hair, his height.. oh and his SMILE! oh drooolss...

Here's the story:

Along the way between UK's and Netherland's Pavilions, I was taking pictures with my uncle's high-tech camera. So then comes along this guy that was walking in my direction with another man. That's the first thing I noticed when I looked up from the camera. It's him. What a gorgeous thing. I couldn't see anything else that moment.(and there aren't any girls near him) :P So I decided to walk pass him to get an upclose look. He looked at me, I looked at him, our eyes met until we passed each other! :D I had a small smile on my face, but he didn't.. But I didn't care. I mean why would you smile to a freaking stranger right?!! Ran up to mommy and told her to look at the hottie that looks like Ronaldo. But his back faced us and he was starting to disappear into the crowd. I held up the camera in-hand and *snap snap* Caption: HOT "Ronaldo". Just kept thinking how hot he is the whole time in the Expo. I think that was around lunch time. Didn't think I was gonna see him again.. I mean approximately 50 thousand people! So kinda just casually put him in the back of my head and went on seeing more and more pavilions. We skipped a lot of the big ones like Australia, France, Italy etc. Just like everyone else, we go to where ever that has shorter queues. We went in the Carribean Island's Pavilion. Where all the countries combined in one square: Jamaica, Dominica, and so on.. And coming from a blind corner, out of nowhere, he appeared in front of me! Well, like 5 feet away from me. I froze on the spot I was standing on. Realising again he was there, I wanted to go near him. So I decided to walk pass him - again. He saw me right away. Funny, he noticed me! I was so excited at the time. Went to look for my mom and uncle that was sitting somewhere in the hall, told my mom, "There he is again!" He was with a few more people this time. There were couple of kids and some adults. This time he faced my direction, and I immediately snapped his image with my camera. He's so hot that I can't help screaming and laughing to myself! Mom says I'm too crazy for white boys. He's not white. He's.. I don't know, maybe Spanish/Asian. ooh la laa.. My mom agreed that he's hot and kept looking at him too. I was on the way to the exit when my mom tapped me and said, "Look, he's coming up behind you," I thought he was like maybe 20 feet away, cos that was where he and his family was gathering. But I turned, and OMG he was right behind me! And my mom was smiling at him! I looked at my mom, then back at him. He was grinning! His pearly whites! His smile!! At the same time I was thinking, Mom what are you doing?!! His relative - an adult man, noticed me and my mom checking him out. He joined other members in the group and started chattering about. Which I don't know what. But I was going, omggg momm.... That's so embarrassing.. My mom hasn't kept her eyes off the family yet, and that man kinda spoke to my mom and told her the hottie's name! I guess it was pretty obvious that I'm kinda into him. But mom didn't hear clearly what his name was! I just played dumb and pretended to check the map of the Expo, knowing that by now the whole family was talking about me. =D Mom was asking me to go over to make friends or something, but I'm not that easy-going, laid-back, cheapish kinda girl.. Two young girls about 13/14 years old (not sure if they're his sisters or not) was walking beside me on the way to the next pavilion and kept looking at me. Awkward.. We all went to the Chile's Pavilion next. Hottie's family was walking behind us. I could hear him laugh XD When we were queueing in Chile's Pavilion, the family was ahead of us. Mom kept telling me how he was looking in my direction! omg... yeeeep! I can't believe I caught his eye! I wanted him to like maybe talk to me, but I don't know.. Ah the things I wish I could have done that day! Near the exit, there was some stairs, and he was standing there, and I walked pass him again. And that's the last of him I ever saw that evening. We both went our seperate ways. I went to Mexico next. Him, well, if we ever meet again... Damn I wish mom heard his name! So much easier to find him on Facebook that way haha I haven't stop thinking about his smile! urghh melts... If I post his pictures here, will anyone find him for me?? I just need to know his name!

Deal With Heart Break

2010-04-25T09:39:00.000-07:00

Tonight it was so hard for me,
I'm begging you please,
I don't wish to see you cry for me.
I probably lied too much
Cos I remembered it like a dream.
I know it will be hard to take in.

My mistake was being dishonest
I send my appologies.
Leading you on,
But not saving you,
That was not the right move.

Selfishness and conceeded,
That I am.
If time turned backwards,
I wouldn't have let it happen.
And you wouldn't be hurt.

You don't know what "IT" is like
Don't even try
You haven't felt the real thing before.
I have already said my sorry,
Guilty I won't be.
It's really time to let go.

What's been going on?

2010-04-21T05:40:00.000-07:00

Suddenly there's been so much going on! I don't even know where to begin to tell you! Well, I know I haven't written any post for a bit. Just shows how busy I am recently. Okay, let's just briefly go through some things and I'll fill you in on some detailed ones.

Hmm well, I went to Taiwan for 10 days for ITF last month. The food there was awesome, people were awesome, place was awesome! Well, Taipei was really nice. Modern metropolitan. My kind of city. But not where the tournament was. But again! People are soo nice! Everything there is in CHINESE, word per word! Not to mention food menu. We had no idea how to read them. Therefore, we had hard time placing our orders. No matter where we went, the locals would just stare at us when we spoke in English and they'd ask Where are you from? It was so much fun getting people's attention there. The ITF was on clay court. I was not used to it at all. Had such a hard time just trying to get to the shots. I played doubles with a russian girl. She's such a sweetheart and an excellent tennis player. She's gonna go far in this game.

After Taiwan, my game completely changed. Not in a bad way, but totally good! Not trying to brag or anything but, I am soo liking my game! Been training hard and I guess it really does pay off. Right now, I've just been practicing morning and afternoon, and doing gym sessions and a lot of running, all in preparations for SUKMA and College Tennis! Well, college tennis is my priority just so you know.

These two weeks they are having Jr Davis Cup and Jr Fed Cup in town. The boys are playing the first week. Next week the girls will play.

Something happened one night. It's not a big deal for me, but for some -- it's a shock, it's sad, and it's emotional and hurtful. You probably won't forget it. But it only felt like a dream to me.

Secret

2010-04-09T06:18:00.000-07:00

I've got a secret,

I'm keeping quiet of.

It stays with me,

Where ever I go.
It's my secret,

It's not anyone else's.

When I think about it,

a grin plasters my face.

Then laughters follow right after.

They call me crazy,

But I'm drowned too deep to care.

Secret,

That I can't tell,

I wish you knew.

The dwelling for it to leak,

and possibly float by your hearing range,

I am struggling with.

Secret,

I wish you knew.

And when you do,

You'll be smiling together with me.

xoxo

He said Be Realistic, I say Dream Further

2010-02-28T23:28:00.001-08:00

Like I said on my Facebook status recently, It only takes one word to change a person's life forever. Yesterday, I heard the most ridiculous, outrageous, cocky TWO WORDs from a man : Be realistic, he said to me.

The word 'realistic' is stuck in my head until today. I can't stop grinning the second after being stunned. Why? Because it got me thinking, if everyone in the world is always being realistic, could we actually have light shining through our windows at night? Would we be able to talk to our friends 100 thousand miles away? Would we even know what's in our body? ..If that matters. Of course it does!

We can't be where we are today if we were restricted from doing things and be made believe that some things are beyond our reach. No one should be brought down this way and lose faith. I know I can do it. I just need a chance to prove them wrong.

Honestly, telling someone that, really could change a person's mentality and maybe make them go loco. But it's how and it's what you choose that could make life something to live for. So I say, what the hell! Dream, dream as you work. Let there be no restrictions or cautions. Work towards every dream in that noggin.

I shall tell you one thing now, when I'm gone, you'll be missing me. Cos you did not know what you had missed out on this girl.

You know you love me
xoxo

Try "Asher Book"

2010-02-09T07:55:00.000-08:00

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe I'm not ready
But I'll..

Try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song,
would you sing along
or wait till I'm gone,
oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart
would you just play the part
or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am I catching up to you
while your running away,
to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe I'm not ready..

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're The One.. Would you believe me?

Find The Voice

2010-02-02T21:39:00.000-08:00

Well, Hello hello people! I don't have tumblr. I have no idea what it is. I don't think I wanna create another networking account. But anyway, I'm just really bored right now. Finished with high school. Just laying back and training like mad until college starts. What a life right? Well, this is where the future begins isn't it? Gotta take driving lessons, deciding what 4 year course to study, and who I wanna be huh? "Discovering Yourself". OMG! Sounds scary.

My friends are all getting jobs, earning their own pocket money, spending time. I'm really just wasting time. =) But this is good, cos probably, when I get to college, life won't be so easy and free anymore would it? I'm addicted to a new word, WICKED.
Crazy loving it.
Hence on my bud, Enah's blog. We love the word. Sorry Ensy I stole your picture up there. Relates more to my post than yours =P Love ya huney <3

Been downloading and watching a lot of movies. Oh, and recently, I've been watching So You Think You Can Dance, and insanely addicted to that as well! I'm thinking about picking up music lessons. I should probably do that soon before time runs out. Guitar is my first choice. I wanna play piano too. But why does everything seem so hard to accomplish lately? I feel the need to do a lot of things and yet, can't reach it. Yeah, I think I can dance :D Three things I would consider doing in college, Music, Vocals, and Dancing! Apart from tennis of course. Think I might be good if I really went for lessons?? You see, there's just too much uncertainty in me. Where do I need to go to gain back the confidence?

Don't ever let anyone tell you it's impossible or you will never make it or just give up! Don't let no one do that. Not even your family or loved ones. When you believe, just reach out.

I Just Want to Know

2009-12-29T08:09:00.000-08:00

Too many made-up stories
Too many built up worries
I don't know which one I should believe.

Your words are so strong
I love you so
But why won't I get a direct answer
Just from you?

They all have things to say
I'm confused with all and what may
But I only still believe
In you.

Where are the signs?
Where are the paths?
Show me the light that shines the way.
I want to follow as you lead me there.
They all say what they think are right
But I only want to know the real rhymes
Of your glorious life.

They say what they don't follow
Should I do what they do too?
Are they right or are they wrong?
Why can't I be given reasons?
Why can't it all be easy?
Mistakes are made and now I'm clueless
So many questions and emotions running in my head.
I just want to know
I just want to know.

Sometimes when I'm all alone
I think about you and just cry to myself
asking why
asking how
and right now
I just want to know...I just want to know..

x Wena x

Hello people! Original COPY! Copyright is prohibited :)

Everything

2009-12-28T04:51:00.001-08:00

Find me here
And speak to me
I want to feel You
I need to hear You
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
Where I find peace again

You are the strength
That keeps me walking
You are the hope
That keeps me trusting
You are the life
To my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be
Any better than this
(Ahh Yeahhh)

You calm the storms
And You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You steal my heart
And You take my breath away
Would You take me in
Would You take me deeper, now

And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be
Any better than this

And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be
Any better than this

Cause you're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
Everything, everything...

When how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this

Oh And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be
Any better any better than this

And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be
Any better than this

Would You tell me how could it be
Any better than this....

Double Movie Night Out!

2009-12-09T08:26:00.000-08:00

Okay people, party has just begun for me! I had to blog about it. I was out with Ilyas Nordin tonight. That was really fun I have to admit. How long had we planned this idea? A couple of weeks already? Even before exams were over, YES! We watched TWO movies in 5 hours! Sweet freedom...

We watched A Christmas Carol 3D. That's only the FIRST movie. So we all know Charles Dickens' stories. A Christmas Carol had soo many versions of it. Storybooks, to cartoons, movies after movies. So storyline were predictable of course. But THIS version, was totally worth 20 bucks! Even though I didn't pay for it. (Thanks Ilyas!) Plus, it has 3D effects! Couldn't get any better. My buddy here agrees with me as well!

Atfer the movie, we had about an hour before the next movie started. We grabbed dinner and went back to the cinema. Twilight Saga : New Moon! Duhh!! Holy maccarol! That was one heck of a movie! Listen up people! If you hadn't watch Twilight The Movie, don't waste money watching New Moon. You will be sooo lost! Because I HAD watch Twilight, but when New Moon was relating to Twilight, I had to rewind and replay the movie in my head to remember some parts. And OMG! Who isn't talking about Jacob Black's new and improved BODY! That was insanely hot. Yeah, I wanted to scream in the theatre the whole time. Now, recently, there has been talks about Team Edward and Team Jacob right? As much as I lurrrvee Jacob Black, I'm rooting for Team Edward! Lol the movie's just perfect with Bella and Ed together ain't it?? Hey, Bella can keep Edward. They've got my blessings ;) But Jacob is mine yeah! What's after New Moon yo??

I won't be going back to tennis practice just yet. It's all about having fun right now. Though I know a lot of y'all are wondering where I am. Ssshhh there are secrets going on behind all this. ;) You just don't know about them. It might surprise you.

Scream!

2009-12-08T10:24:00.000-08:00

The day your door is closed
The echoes fill your soul
They won't say which way to go
Just trust your heart
To find what you're here for
Open another door
But I'm not sure anymore
It's just so hard

Voices in my head
Tell me they know best
Got me on the edge
They're pushin', pushin', they're pushin'
I know they've got a plan
But the ball's in my hands
This time is man-to-man
I'm drivin', fightin', inside of

(A world that's upside down)
It's spinning faster
What do I do now
Without you?

I don't know where to go
What's the right team
I want my own thing
So bad I'm gonna scream
I can't choose, so confused
What's it all mean
I want my own dream
So bad I'm gonna scream

I'm kicking down the walls
I gotta make them fall
Just break through them all
I'm punchin', crashin', I'm gonna
Fight to find myself
Me, and no one else
Which way, I can't tell
I'm searchin', searchin', can't find a

(Way that I should turn)
I should, to right or left, it...
It's like nothing works
Without you

I don't know where to go
What's the right team
I want my own thing
So bad I'm gonna scream
I can't choose, so confused
What's it all mean
I want my own dream
So bad I'm gonna scream

Yeah, the clock's running down,
Hear the crowd getting loud
I'm consumed by the sound
Is it her?
Is it love?
Can the music ever be enough?
Gotta work it out!
Gotta work it out!
You can do it!
You can do it!

I don't know where to go
What's the right team
I want my own thing
So bad I'm gonna scream
I can't choose, so confused
What's it all mean
I want my own dream
So bad I'm gonna scream

I don't know where to go
What's the right team
I want my own thing
I want my own thing
I can't choose, so confused
What's it all mean
I want my own dream
So bad I'm gonna scream

Ohh
Aaahhhhhhhh!!!

It's All Out Of Me

2009-12-08T09:10:00.000-08:00

My head is so heavy,
Cos I feel so sleepy,
Can I just leave everything,
Where it's not supposed to be?

I can't stand another minute
On the ground,
This has gone too far,
It has to stop right now.
I can hardly breathe anymore..

# You're no use,
What's the point in having you around?
I just want to find the right way
Out of this town!
Do you know how I feel,
I want to be free,
Can't you now see,
It's all out of me!

When it gets dark,
The room spins round and round.
I need help,
But not from you,
Damn clown!

Lonely but not afraid,
I'm a girl who's gonna win the game!

##

So out of breath,
So just scream,
Gonna just -- Let it out of me!

Yes, this is an ORIGINAL. I don't know... This just came to me all of a sudden and I took 15 minutes to get it done. Exactly one night before finals was over! haha

Writes of You When I Fell... 2008

2009-12-08T06:57:00.000-08:00

Just went through some old stuff again =) Wow it's unbelievable how much I can write just over him. I wasn't obsessed. LOL

~You~
I take a trip down the road
So afraid to walk alone
Without you I feel so cold
How far you are from me is clearly shown.

You say that we are together
You've done nothing but put me under the weather
How romantic you sounded
So perfect all around.
I'd go through miles
Just to see your smile.
But nothing I did,
Could really show how much you meant to me.
Myself is all I try to be.

Going down the road
Catching my breath before I go
Without you,
I'd still have to go.

For I'll always love you
Please don't show me your eyes
that's so cold..

~You~
I can't believe what I am hearing
You just made me drown in your words
and now you should know that I'm leaving
Then tearing the words you once left in my heart.

I can't resist you
You made me leaped above the sky
But now,
There's no believing in you anymore.
After what you said, what you did,
It took me higher
Than where you could imagine.

Your words were so promising
It has never disappoint me
But I saw the true colors in you
and it made me someone completely new.

The feelings I gave to you
I left for you to take care
You messed it up
You toyed with it.

I now get your game
So I won't take the blame
Cos I'm playing on board with you
You fool.
When you're a player
Don't believe me when I say
'I Love You' .

;)

~You~
I don't wanna be played by you
I don't wanna be fooled by you
Cos only I can show you
What life's like
and I will not start a fight.

Cos I have better things to do
My time is not worth wasted on you
Cos you didn't care
You left me here
In my days of blues
Please let me know
When will this be finally through.

You can say that you love me
You can say all you want
But I knew you were just having fun
You were once someone I was looking for
Right now you gotta make your own way to the door.

A Lil' Bit Longer

2009-11-26T06:42:00.000-08:00

Got the news today

Doctor said I had to stay
A little bit longer and I'll be fine

When I thought it'd all been done
when I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer and I'll be fine

But you don't know what you got till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile, you laugh, you glow
You don't even know no, no,
You don't even know

All this time goes by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer and I'll be fine

Waiting on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don't know what you got till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know (no, no)
You don't even know (no, no)
You don't even know (no, no)

Yeah!

But you don't what you got till it's gone,
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low, yeah
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know! No!

So I'll wait till kingdom come
All the highs and lows are gone
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
'll be... fine

La La Landd

2009-11-26T01:38:00.000-08:00

I am confident, but
I still have my moments.
Baby, that's just me.

I'm not a supermodel
I still eat McDonalds.
Baby, that's just me.

Well, Some may say I need to be afraid
Of losing everything.
Because of where I
had my start, and where I made my name
Well everything's the same
In a La La Land machine. Machine.
Machine

Who said I can't wear my
Converse with my dress?
well Baby, That's just me!

And Who said I can't be single
and have to go out and mingle
oh baby, That's not me
Noo, noo.

Some may say I need to be afraid
Of losing everything.
Because of where I
had my start, and where I made my name
Well everything's the same
In the La La Land.

Tell me do you feel the way I feel
Cuz nothing else is real
In the La La Land appeal

Some may say I need to be afraid
Of losing everything.
Because of where I
had my start, and where I made my name
When everything's the same
In La La Land machine
Well, I'm not gonna change
In a La La Land machine
Well I will stay the same
In La La Land...

Machine !!!

I won't change anything in my life (I won't change
anything in my life)
I'm staying myself tonight
(I'm staying myself tonight)

Don't Wanna Fight Anymore

2009-11-25T08:09:00.000-08:00

We may fight and argue each and everyday

And the hate never seems to go away
Cos our minds has disconnected
Rotate the opposite way
Wish you'd understand.

The curse words were never left to spare
So often used to cut and hurt
'Til the souls are completely bare.

I despised you and those surrounding
Wanting to kick and scream
But I held it all in
Wish you could see.

Time has come and gone
Never realize how swiftly it would pass
Though been counting down for the past few months
The days counted are drawing to the lasts.

Suddenly reminiscing moments we spent
Thinking our friendship were born to stay
How a simple mistake
made us become this way
-- So far away.

I somehow wished
we didn't have to fight anymore
If we could go back to the old days
Where on our travels
We'd joke and gossip
Until clouds fade to blue.

Almost a year it seems
Since the cold war started
Haven't seen you in what feels like decades
The feeling of miss is there.
I wished you knew
And if you felt the same way too.

Old --> New =)

2009-09-16T02:36:00.000-07:00

This is an original one. Also just recently retrieved back!

Looking through your soul,
That I've been looking for,
Wondering how life would be.
Checking the distance to see
how far we may go

..and so we move on now,
leaving things behind.
Coming back up with a whole new line!

###
So we go, step up now..
and we gonna try hard
'til we reach the top.
Nothing's coming between us.
We're gonna make it and
we're gonna step to the top..

Living a whole new life now,
taking challenges, asking how..
I keep telling myself to keep,
moving on.
Look where we are right now.

...and we're on the way now
leaving pasts behind,
taking on a whole new life!

###

Take a glance around you,
look what surrounds you now..
Having lonely nights before,
Loving how it is, loving how it is,
right now.

P.S. Original. Copyright is prohibited =P

Old turned NEW!

2009-09-16T02:25:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! OMG! Look what I just found! Okay I wrote this crappy thing.. It was in an old notebook from 2 years ago. I'm so glad I found it.. Left a few good memories in here. I think I wrote this when I was into a "certain" boy. lols Probably won't know what I was thinking. But, guess this goes to him. If he ever sees it...

Look, you may think I've got this wrong,
But you don't know what I'm thinking of.
Just tell me that it's over now,
Cos I don't wanna wonder how it went down
--Later.

The distance between us isn't the problem.
We're just too far apart,
we'll never be together to follow our hearts.
I don't know how to tell you this,
I guess I just wanna move on without it..

If you ain't gonna talk to me,
Just let me go, set me free.
One day you'll find out,
How I really felt about this.

My songs aren't about you.
They're just about my life.
Letting them out into the world.
Get this straight for now,
'Cos DAMN, I'm screaming my lungs out!!!

By Wena xoxo

LOVED you.

Hold Your Breath

2009-08-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

There's only that much of time,
What are you gonna do with it,
when second's ticking away?
They tell you to take a look,
into the distant future,
There's so many doors opened to you,
You can choose.

You're holding back from the fear,
Fear that freedom would take over.
You being alone,
You taking charge,
Could mean that something in the world,
Be a part of you now.

They like to tell you what to do
And won't stop 'til you follow the rule.
Challenge it all, challenge time
'Cos life's about dreaming
and you know what I mean.
Our days on Earth isn't forever
We'll do whatever we can before it's all over.

With this weight on your shoulder,
Would they feel the pain, if you got hurt?
Would they know you're lonely,
When you're surrounded by all?
Would they realize your sadness,
When there's no teardrop on this page?
The flow won't be there to show...

Your life flashed by your eyes.
You wanna make changes no one can.
Your thoughts circle round your head.
When reality zapped back,
All this while,
You were holding your breath....

HillSong United in Singapore

2009-07-28T09:07:00.000-07:00

First of all, my 2nd elder sister is in town for last few weeks of summer vacation! She arrived in Singapore on midnight Tuesday last week. We decided to catch up with her and my eldest sister in Singapore for a couple of days. Shopping! Sight-Seeing! People! Music!

We got tickets for the Hillsong United's concert on Saturday night. It was actually a whole-day conference thing. But we only went for the concert that night which started at 7pm.

HillSongs United is a famous Christian band based from Sydney, Australia. Their words of God is spreading worldwide and still passing on. The presence of God there at the conference, made the atmosphere overwhelming! Singapore was LOUD! =D It's a great thing.

The "house" totally ROCKED! Seriously, the stands was shakey! Anyway, I posted this a little too late. There's videos for this concert on YOUTUBE : Hillsongs United In Singapore.
Best of all, I had a great time with my sisters! I'm gonna miss Aileen a whole lot! I'm pretty sure I'll cry when she goes back and til the next time I see her again. Wait for me! I'm going on that next train! I'll be sure I do!!!!!

Check it out! and check out their songs too!

Singing out for now!
Wena

Loneliness... Silence

2009-07-28T08:26:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of this loneliness,
I'm kicking up a knotch,
no more messing with my life,
now I'm gonna get on a roll.

Though I'm all surrounded,
But the silence is still on...

Chorus:
I'm gonna let it WAKE UP,
Free this silent soul inside of me.
I'm not gonna let it, HOLD UP
my life, is in my control
Let it free,
all in me,
I'm gonna kill the loneliness.

There's something missing in me,
Don't know what it is,
you can say I'm emotional,
for all that I posted.
But one thing you don't realise,
as you're by my side,
with or without, Im just as lonely..

Could you or would you,
turn the music loud,
make the silence blow out!

Chorus*

In the shower,
or the bedtimes,
it's all over,
I got the silent mode turned on..
But I'm changing,
for the better,
I won't allow stupid quizzes,
to decide my future!

Chorus#
So I'm gonna let it WAKE UP,
Free this dead inside of me,
it's not gonna HOLD UP,
my life, is in my control..
Let me free, all in me,
this walking dead, won't fill my head,
KILL THE LONELINESS!

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Yeah yeah I wrote this.. Peace out =)

Check Yourself in THE MIRROR

2009-07-22T08:42:00.000-07:00

How LOW can people actually get, I wonder? They'd COMPLETELY switch to something they don't believe in! What I hate - THEY blame it on YOU! It always (most of the time) starts with rumors. Don't you think so? I'm not surprised "THEY" travel so fast. It happens all the time...
Rumors and gossips would spread, and eventually people convince it to be true and gang up to turn backs on YOU!

Okay, THEN people would start to tease you, make fun of you, spread MORE rumors about you, etc etc.. HEY, no surprises here right?? Let's see.. They'd obviously make you an outcast. Funny thing is - when you do it to someone, KARMA and CONSCIENCE get back at you(although a person may not realise it or believe in it) or the same thing you did, happens to you. Because you don't wanna be left out from the "cool CREW", you do whatever to join and be friends with them cos if you didn't, YOU're gonna be made fun off as well. What parents SHOULDN'T teach their kids are the negatives. You don't need me telling you this. But some parents, are just full of it... Poor kids.. (not really) People like this, just don't got their own dignities. Just shallow, pathetic, no CLASS

"People" really gotta check the mirror before they start talking. I really DON'T wanna give so much of a damn about this kinda stuff, but WHEN are they going to realise this?! If you're trying to gain friends, badmouthing about others is NOT A WAY. It's not a way to EVEN make conversations. I'd think people would be mature than that, but I guess not.

So, when you do this to someone, you're trying to gain pity from others now?? What I'm trying to say is, you get the feeling that you're more left out now. You don't have your closest friends with you anymore. (the ones you casted aside before this? Remember?) They were your closest, and most loyal to you. But you decide to go in other directions. Which is fine. Life is about challenges. But telling people how down and upset you are and hoping they'd comfort you and feel your sadness?? NO! WRONG! They won't! If they knew what you have been doing, they'd say YOU DESERVE THIS! You have no rights to ask for pity AT ALL! They ABANDONED you because you did the same to them before. They really don't need people like you to be their friends.

Check yourself AGAIN in the mirror before calling someone else a bitch/asshole. Don't judge, NEVER judge before you see through people yourself or even when you see people through others' eyes. Trust that I'm not all happy writing this. It's experiences. It hurts.

Wena
Peace Out.

Am i??? REALLY??

2009-07-16T22:34:00.000-07:00

Okay people... Enough with the same comments to me.

"Why you sound so emo???"

"Can't believe you write so emo stuff"

"Whoa Wena's emo..."

LOL whatever it is.. No one could ever imagine me to write stuff sooo -- hmm what's the word??
SOo.. Deep??
Honestly, I'm not emo NOR goth.. At least, I don't look one bit like I am =P
The stuff I write is just a way of expressing how I feel. Yeah I rather not show it, (cos I don't think I can) so I post them up! Lol finally! There's a practical way..
Ow man I can't stand EMO people! So it ain't possible for me to be CLASSIFIED there. ;)
I love having fun remember?? I'm not into the cutting-myself-up or being sad all the time OR the being-home-alone thing (Although that's good at times).

Anyway, like I said, I just wish I could put all this stuff to music. Won't that be SWEEET?! we'll get to call it:

Tsan's Music
or
Weeena's Beat
OR
LYRIC GODDESS!

muahahahah that sounded pretty lame after reading it over again....
okay come ON people! Time to wake UP! (I have no idea WHY I just said that) I'm pretty bored now.. nothing to do.. Butttt... I still have things to share! Well, NOW I don't.... blank now..

oh oh! If you LIKE it, comment and REPOST!

Thanks!

I'll be BACK!
xoxo
Weeens

Megan Fox is a real Foxy?

2009-07-07T00:50:00.000-07:00

Okay, here's what it is: I'm so dumbfounded. Who here thinks Megan Fox is hot?? Oh yeahhh definitely SO HOT! But what is SHE? Is SHE even a SHE? The world wide web is full of the same questions after she made a small blow at the Golden Globes, saying she's a man. Reporters took it as an attempt as just to calm her nerves.

But it does not prove anything! I've been googling again and again searching for the truth! Is a Megan Fox a real woman or NOT?! But it sort of make sense if you think about it, she's tooo perfect yeh? She was born the name Mitchell Reed Fox. Parents thought she was too soft for a boy and can't help changing her to be more "normal" (as a boy). As her(his) 16 birthday, Fox's parents decided to give a full-bodied plastic surgery. I'm guessing it happened?
The star of Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen, Megan Fox is the hot topic since the first release of Transformers 2007.

Hot! Hot! Hot!

And I still don't have an ANSWER!
I was surprised when my friends told me ofcourse, but then again my other friends disagree and said it was just rumored. Thought the internet was supposed to give me exact answers. >.<

Ladida Ladida?? Check this Out

2009-07-06T07:55:00.000-07:00

~Would you date boys/girls that you have a lot in common with? (Which eventually you'd run out of things to say to each other)

[or]

~Would you date boys/girls that makes you laugh by pulling jokes and conversations out of thin air? (which keeps a relationship more long-lasting and fun)

hmmm....

Short or tall, black or white,
twisting my mind just to get this right.
if you're hot, don't dream too much,
As time pass, you're gonna lose that touch..
I'm just saying..

I'm a girl that's got a full wish list,
If you asked me, I'd know what 'perfect' is.
Tan, hair, abs and eyes,
trust that I can make those mine.

Oh yeah, saying NO is hard to apply,
I know what you'd be like after 7 days go by.
This innocent look can't be fooled.
She's got you playing in this game too!

Personality, don't pick one.
More humor, keeps it real and fun.
Ladida, ladida..
Too much in common's not a bum,
I ain't sure if I can keep this up.
Perfect's the personality I'm thinking of.

You can tell, if I can tell,
if YOU got it under your nose!
Yeah Yeah!

~Weeeeena~

Peace OUT
xoxo

Hey guys, don't think too much about the point or meaning OR reason I wrote this. There are NO perfect people in this world -- and I know that =P So, there are some things that needs to be perfect but some you just have no say over it. Live life, grab chances, take charge, LOVE!
P.S. Oh yeah I did all those artsy craftsy =D

Hah! 'We're all good'

2009-06-30T08:40:00.000-07:00

All you know are the nights spent alone,
waiting for time to arrive 'til you get gone.
Driving yourself so far away,
maybe just for now, you gotta stop and say...

Baby, I'm getting drawn to you,
oh this song's, got me thinking of you.
I don't think it's possible
to know if it's true.
Thought my mind was blank,
But put my heart to it,
So it's all good,
We're all good, we're all good now.

We're assuming that there's no hope,
That today's a last, and tomorrow's a gone.
But we're wrong,
We don't know, we don't know,
'Cos heaven's got it all in control!

Baby, I can't say I told you so.
Right now, you gotta learn a little more.
She won't think it's possible,
to know we're on a roll!
Remember you need to get them right,
I don't wanna know
if you should put it aside..
And when you do,
we're all good, we'll all be good now.

Just the things I say, all the that things you do!
If you think you can make my dreams come true,
hope you won't make me a fool.
I'll make you play the game,
the way you got me into!

Oh yeah, I'm getting drawn to you,
yeah this song's got me thinking of you.
I don't think it's possible
to know if it's true.
My mind ain't blank no more,
cos I got my heart put to it.
All became good,
it's all good..
We're all good now...
*******
~Wena~

Hey y'all! Not sure if you get what I'm writing here. But it doesn't matter. Leave a comment, cos that'll mean so much to me! Give me a beat to this! argh

From D' Boy <3

2009-06-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

When you are not here to share my days, my nights
My life shall be incomplete
For you are my heart, my soul
The togetherness i had known to seek

Without you i merely live day to day
With you i am guaranteed to find all
Which is searched for everyday, every night
My completeness, my eternal peace of mind

You, the keeper of my dream
The one who holds my heart
The one i shall spend my life with
The one i shall stand by

To stand beside through all there is
Through all that life shall offer
Knowing about this special love
Shall show us the way, each and everyday

Forever is what i shall give to you
The search is coming to an end
Our hearts have met each other
As lovers, as soul-mates, as best friends
Our journey has come to an end

By Corey Olzard

I never imagined Corey writing this. And for the record, writing to me. He makes me wanna fall deeper into this love.. I can't help it. How lucky am I? I didn't believe him when he said, he had never written a poem for any girl he loved before until now. I was hurt before, so getting me to trust guys now are somewhat difficult, if they like me. Boys gotta try hard to convince this girl right here...

I love COREY!
God bless him always <3

Silent Mode...

2009-06-16T08:50:00.000-07:00

Time has gone and passed by my eyes,
whatever that has happened before,
nothing I can do anymore,
but just my goodbyes.

Now comes the time when I have to show,
that I can be my true self.

The future is here,
and I'm standing in a place of fear,
cos nobody knows what's going on.
It's only a matter of time
before we're gone.

Are we just standing here,
showing that our lives ain't important?
When will we finally feel,
we're closer to God than ever!

~Wena~

Let It Go... (Pls..)

2009-06-10T03:01:00.000-07:00

You're the reason why,
I lose sleep at night.
How could I move on with you,
if you can't let go.

If I could,
I'd want to make you happy..

# Let it go, let it go!
If you're with me,
I'll show you what it's about.
Let it go, let it go!
I could picture you,
you, me and us,
If you let me in,
you will see what I mean!

All's in the past,
why shed a tear,
when you're not the one at lost here..
God's got me feeling this way,
cos we both believe..

Fret not, worry not..
I could free you from all this waiting!

#Let it go, let it go!
If you're with me,
I'll show you what it's about.
Let it go, let it go!
I could picture you,
you, me and us,
If you let me in,
you will see what I mean!

~Take a leap of faith!
Show them what you made of!
Be strong, the the right One!
They'll never know!

#Repeat Chorus
Let it go!!
Then we'll move on!

Singapore!

2009-06-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

Hey what's up! Oh, I'll tell you what's up! It's school break and I'm not risking anything to stay at home and look at shit people's faces for whole 2 weeks! I've been hoping for this trip for quite awhile, knew this was going to be it!

There's tournament going on back home -- which apparently I'm not playing. Gladly! SO done with these tourneys. So, why not let "some" pathetic people give it a shot ey?

Anyway, I'm outa town for about 6 days and I am in SINGAPORE! Been wanting to come back since end of last year.

The night when I first arrived, my sis took me to get some fastfood. Popeyes' is the name. Place was packed. Oh! I forgot something! The airport is, again, HEAVEN - literally. I enjoy watching foreigners travel. Oh boy.. I enjoyed the "view" alright! That same night I arrived, I made my sis take me to the Movies. Guess what I watched! I HAD to watch it! I don't give a damn what people think about this movie. I loved it! I wanna watch it again! I LOVE DISNEY! okay, okay.. I watched Hannah Montana The Movie! Totally rocks my socks off! If I hadn't lost my voice from the cough I'm still having, I would have screamed like mad in the theatre. =P

So, I've also been spending time at Carmel Church, praising and worshiping God; and hanging out with the YOUTHS, which was totally fun. I got to play bball with the boys. Total athletes. They help me out with some basketball skills, while I showed them how some of the tennis skills work. We played at one of the guy's condo. Awesome place he got there. I really got to know some of the youth kids really well and we could just talk without worries or doubts, we let it all out. I definitely got to know God better.

Plans for tomorrow are, shopping! and Zoo with the youths again! Can't wait to meet up again! =)

I've got a new song for y'all. You might think it's kinda deep. But you also might like it if you heard it.

That's all for now peeps! Keep tuning in for moi!

(BTW, I can't believe Dinara Safina lost! Straight SETS! Probably she knows that I won't be able to watch her match and support her =P. Scoring 6-4, 6-2 to world 7th seed, Svetlana Kusnetsova. Federer is now a LEGEND! He broke Agassi's record for winning most GRANDSLAMS! He made history! After Nadal got defeated in the 3rd of 4th round, Federer was the next to defend the title, and he DID IT, defeating Robin Soderling who's ranked top 30s in the world. He defeated all the top players such as Gonzalez and Nadal! Wow..except Roger ofcourse! Great Job Roger!)

Shaheen Jafargholi - Final - Britains Got Talent 2009 (HQ)

2009-06-03T03:21:00.001-07:00

He's 12! Indescribable voice! Are you kidding me! I love it!

Roland Garros 2009!

2009-05-28T10:35:00.000-07:00

The French Open Grand Slam 2009 on claycourt is back for another year! My favorite players to watch are Dinara Safina, Jo-Wilfred Tsonga, Caroline Wozniacki, Maria Sharapova, Ana Ivanovic and Novak Djokovic!

Tsonga's 2nd round match with Juan Monaco is on now! Score is so tight! Tsonga won first set 7-5 leading 3-1 at first. Second set goes to Monaco who hasn't gave up on his match. Tsonga took the 3rd set and the FINAL SET! HE DID IT!! TSONGA DID IT!! 6-6 TieBreak holding up to 10-8! He collapsed onto the clay after finishing the 4th match point, hitting the final winner with a smash! Awesome! He is the best player to watch if you want excitement! There's always drama going on when he is playing! I can't wait to see how he does in the next round! Roland Garros will be on for 10 day and more to come from me. Maybe.

The ballkids are doing such a good job on the courts! I admire them a lot -- so commited with this job they were given! I give most credits to them =)

Something NEW! ~Hurts~

2009-05-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

This is something new I wrote when I was in class. =) Hope you like it, and if you do, comment on it.

HURTS

Sometimes I just don't understand
you spent hours talking to me 'til the next day
then outa nowhere I'm just left for spare
It seems like YOU are so easy to read

But anyone can be..
You can be..
So unpredictable

#I don't mind to sacrifice sometime
just when I do
I always get left behind.
You just mess with my mind,
They left me hanging on the line
Hurts,
I'm gotten over really quick.

When you're into me
you'd take the shortest moment
to post on the chat
and asks why I was late
I show up just as excited

I can be what you want..
Oh yeah! It'll be memorable!

# I don't mind to sacrifice sometime
just when I do
I always get left behind.
You just mess with my mind,
They left me hanging on the line
Hurts,
I'm gotten over really quick!

Boys will be boys as always
just a blow and throw
Finding a right one's not as easy
when dang, you're sleezy baby!

##I don't mind to sacrifice sometime
But when you have us combined
you better keep it in your head
that I won't let time slip away tonight

Yeah you'll get left behind!
Oh no! No more messing with my mind
This night..
It hurts...
This night, leave you, leave you
On.... The.... Line...

Wena<3

***********************************

P.S. Aww I so wish I had a music for this

I wanna know you (David A. and Hannah Montana)

Jonas Brothers - Paranoid - Official Music Video (HQ)

2009-05-24T09:24:00.001-07:00

I Love this!!! no other words to describe.. AWESOME i LOVE JoBros!

I won't be lost, You will find Me

2009-05-15T23:45:00.000-07:00

Where's the world today,
How everything is not supposed to be,
How we are moving,
The Earth is shifting..

So much going on in my head,
whenever it's silent,
I'll be thinking all over again..
Why there are trees, why there's a sky,
why a moon is up above,
but can't reach up with our hands,
though we try..
And the Sun would rise yet another day
from East to West..

I thought this would never end,
this planet will be circling until infinity,
which no one knows 'til when..

If "it" is bound to happen someday,
someday when the future in near,
when the future is already here,
I will not fear,
nor the fear for evil,
just the faith towards Heavenly God.

I'd wonder how the young ones would understand,
How others could tell them..
As for I,
still as lost.

When the day of Judgment comes upon,
for He who creates,
would take me home once again.
I won't be lost,
I know You will find me..

My Goodbyes Will Stay

2009-05-07T00:40:00.000-07:00

I can honestly say
you been on my mind
since I woke up today(up today)
I look at your photograph
all the time
these memories come back to life
and I don't mind

Chorus#
I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
the time that you danced with me
with no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
the memory I want to forget
is goodbye

I woke up this morning
and played our song
and through my tears and sang along
I picked up the phone and then
put it down
cause I know
I'm wasting my time
and I don't mind

Chorus#
I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
the time that you danced with me
with no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'til i cry
But the one thing I wish I forget
the memory I want to forget
is goodbye

suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
with your ring tone
I hesitate, but answer it anyway
you sound so alone
and I'm surprised to hear you say

Chorus##
you remember when we kissed
you still feel it on your lips
the time that you danced with me
with no music playing
you remember those simple things
we talked 'til we cry
you said your biggest regret
the one thing you wished I forget
is saying goodbye

goodbye...

Just You??

2009-04-23T06:15:00.000-07:00

You told me the sun shining in your face,
could have left you in a maze.
You said i'm the light that leads the path,
you were amazed,
which got me thinking...

Does it sound like a fairytale,
cos you made it sound so convincingly well,
oh just tell,
me if you could see how I feel,
for real...

You're a song in my head,
like a book no one's read,
just what I'd love to write,
cos what seems so right,
it's just you, just you...

I won't just leave,
if you tell me that's it's over..
No, I won't go.. Cos we're together forever.
Let's find the music in each other,
now. Cos we're gonna be..
You have to do more than just say 'I love you',
if you're player then we just won't do..

=D

x WiNa! x

Aaron!!!

2009-04-23T00:32:00.000-07:00

Wondering who he is?
He is the one and only..
master of drifts, no different with cars.
The annoying, the mean, THE Sarcastic -- if I may say so myself =)

Try as hard to argue,
damn, he'll ALWAYS have something to say!
He's always right, can't go left.
He'll say this doesn't make sense,
and give his point instead..

Comment on him? Not suggesting it.
"Nothing's wrong with his style, his walk "rocks" =.=
it's just him.. SO Just him.
He hits the gym,
he won't let you win..

Insulting, when he curses,
shows he's one of the asses.. =P
I like being annoying to him,
impressive he's tough as zinc..
He's predictable to be a joker and sarcastic..
What I do? Just play along with IT. =D

p.s. I am soo dead when he reads this =D hope he into this though
(i love my job)

Update! Everything

2009-04-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

Just here to update on what's going on!
Anyway, I can't believe I just finished composing my own song. It's silly, I know. But hey, I seem to like it. It came from inspirations. Just tunes to my heart. Only one problem, there IS NO music to my "song", sadly. If you want to know who is it I'm writing about, start commenting, readers!

Apart from that, tennis has been going okay. Had been worst last month. Just so you know, I've NEVER played SO BAD in my life! Ever! I still got a lot to fix and not mess up. After the first ITF I played this year, things got exciting when I got back home for another ITF. There was so many people and players to meet and their games are indescribable--completely good, but not perfect of course. It's much fun to be hanging out with the players from all over, such as GBR, USA, NZL, AUS, TPE, Italy, and so much more! You know it! =D

I absolutely can not wait until Hannah Montana's Movie is out! Her new songs are amazing, as usual. Check out 'The Climb'. I love it and recently I just heard her song, 'Goodbye' that I could really cry listening to it! It's so sweeeet... It was written for Nick Jonas. (from The Jonas Brothers band, in case you didn't know) What pity, they broke up. Good news for me is-- Selena Gomez was not really dating or NEVER happened! Not that I hate Selena, I just don't love her with Nicholas =)

Friday the 3rd of March, was school sport's day and I was one of the runners-- suprisingly, yes! I have never ran tracks and field in my life. My whole schooling years, I've only been to school sport's day twice! My house team is Blue Colored. For many years straight in the past, this team has never placed. Anyway, this is my first time on tracks ever and ever in this school. So I thought, I'd do this team a favor. I signed up for 100m sprint but, instead my team teacher made me sign up for 800m! And damn, these students can run! I was really nervous no idea on what to or know any of the ground rules. But I didn't give much thought about it.
BANG! I started sprinting to take the lead, and after the first round, I lead pretty far from the others. I got tired and couldn't breathe right and I was looking down at my palm, all white! I didn't freak out much, I just slowed down and jogged till I came in FIRST PLACE babey! Which is totally cool! It was a lot of fun, having so many people sitting at the grandstand cheering ME on! Even the other color teams were cheering for me!
I left after I got my GOLD medal. Team captain wanted me to run relay, as a replacement. But I had to take a pass. Cos' I've got tennis practice in the afternoon. Imagine, I was completely surprised when I was told Team Blue came in Second place! Yeah, I saw some really good effort from the students. Maybe it's cos of me =D bringing back the winning spirit! WOW this news is HUGE!

Daydreaming Again..

2009-03-30T09:07:00.000-07:00

Started up the day, waking in the morning,
And then smiled to myself thinking about yesterday.
My mom's yelling at me from down the stairs,
so I grabbed my pack and went my way.

I kept thinkin' and wondering
if I'd see you again, this day
while just walking for another school day.

I'm starting to zone out,
I start writing again in my head,
cos this time you know I won't let it slip!

###
I come up with all kinds of thoughts
just coming up with different chapters in this book,
I'm writing up
I'm directing a movie about you and me,
ohh.. just us...
I'm sitting in class on autopilot mode,
with no idea what would pass
when i got slammed, I knew,
I'm just daydreaming again..

So many songs play in my head,
over and over again,
But parts of them always got me thinkin' of you instead.
Just so you know when you leave,
I couldn't stand waiting to have you back.

My heart just got tuned in
you could see what I'm thinking
cos you gotta know I won't let you slip!

###

Just daydreaming again, whoaa yeahh
I'm running down the steps,
just too great to fall on my back!
totally flushed out to have you right there.
Gotta get up, get up,
Gotta wake up, wake up, WAKE UPPP!!!

###

Something's just meant to be,
When I have you with me,
So I definitely won't be,
Daydreaming again, you'll see....

Just Say, JUST SCREAM!!!

2009-02-25T00:29:00.000-08:00

Why is this life, made so difficult?
That I think everything is back where it's started.
But I know,
this isn't just a simple cut.
Nobody knows who are you,
cos nobody knows, what it really feels.
And all i wish,...
is that they all don't exist!!!

When you feel that you're lost,
and the walls you're in, are closed
but no one's there to help
cos no one's got your back
ohh... can't you tell!!!

*** I just want to get out,
we all wanna know how!
Just leave it all behind?
Just move on with your life!!
But can you really, really let them all go...

Although you speak about your problems,
Are you sure they'd all understand?
yes, they may give you their responds,..
but do you know, do you know...
it still won't go away,
THAT EASILY!!! noo!!

Tell me exactly, what did I do wrong?
Tell me really, where did i go wrong?!...
Why do I always have to face you all,
when you know I just won't show
you how much it hurts.
Confront me,
take it to through me!
Don't be a coward,
I'll always be moving forward!

Valentines Anyone?

2009-02-12T01:45:00.001-08:00

Yo, yo check this,

you may find it so difficult,

cos’ u can’t help, but think you’re in love.

You seemed so high when I look at you,

wonder what it feels like to be the fool .

Cupid’s arrow hit me straight,

wonder if it hit you? It hit you.

Yeah, yeah that’s right.

So, Hey I’m telling you,

it’s no secret,

ya better not let yours be kept,

cos you know it just won’t do!

It don’t matter what they all say,

do you even care?

Hah! Maybe I just do.

Pick her, pick me, pick her

Hold up, let’s just drop it right here.

Once that lovebug fly away,

I just gotta go my own way,

so stick around, and may I ask

Valentines, Anyone?? =D

-wena-

You Have NO Idea II

2009-02-12T01:43:00.000-08:00

Time has gone and passed by my eyes,

whatever that has happened before,

nothing I can do anymore, just say goodbyes.

Now comes the time when I have to show,

that I am, I am the one on my own,

without help at all.

The future is here,

and I am standing in a place of fear,

cos nobody knows what’s going on,

it’s only a matter of time

before you’re gone.

Should we just stand here,

show that our lives ain’t important?

when will we finally feel

if we’re closer to God

than ever before.

Wena

You Have NO Idea

2009-02-12T01:41:00.000-08:00

The green of the earth; the clear,deep-blue sea, the fairest caps on the snowy mountains, “Peace on Earth” that we now know — is slowly fading away. The increase of money production, the fast-moving technologies and economics has become equipments that we can’t live without in our daily lives anymore. Unlike before when a ladder is needed to change a light bulb, - NOW we don’t even need light bulbs! Technologies moving so rapidly, is literally ridiculous and with a ’snap’ of a finger - BOOM light’s ON!

What I’m really trying to say is - yes, man are and should be inventing or create for the good of mankind. But unfortunately, man are never perfect, as formed by God. But God also never made US reprobates and destroy the beauty of the Earth he created for. As human, we have brains - used for thoughts, imaginations, hopes, dreams and also plans. From too much exposures, (from what I don’t know) human suddenly have abilities to produce an increasing number of creative, as well as proactive ideas and schemes to bring future afloat from Earth grounds. That is already occurring right now at every single second!

I support the ideas of scientists trying to bring remedy for complicated ailments and such. But then, there is cloning of human beings? Now, that is absolutely unacceptable. It’s insane! It’s completely against God’s will! But, they did it anyhow. All sorts of guns, nuclear weapons and bombs are promulgated to bring security, ownership and superiority to specific countries - and of course, money is never not involved! Basically, whoever has more money, dominates! - USUALLY.

Look at the wars going on, look at the environment around you, look at the WORLD disasters, look at the people suffering. JUST LOOK! We have seen and heard reminders, warnings; we were given admonitions! -Recycle, re-use, posters and adverts on TV and radio. What do we do about it? Putting up a couple of recycle bins round the block? Setting up posters “replant trees”? Yeah, what the hell did we ever do anything about them! Those are HARDLY ever acknowledged! Animal creatures are threatened to extinction because no actions were taken.

Anyway, societies and organizations are set up to do the world a better place. I admire those social workers and doctors together with all those brilliant people that would do anything from just helping, to risking their lives just to bring peace back on earth. All across countries, thousands and still increasing number, people are unemployed. These crew are ‘jobs, NOT jails’. Over millions and millions of children are also left hungry, hurting, homeless and uneducated. They are living ‘without light and out of sight’. These guardian angels travel over thousands of miles to bring them life again. Along with their love, joy, contentment and satisfactions. Although they contribute almost everything they could, what these Average Joes can do are STILL limited. LOVE can safe THE WORLD.

I love music. Music is what express it all. Music is what touched ME! So many hundreds of songs have been composed to make people realized what is revolving around, all over trying to make ends meet. The songs, ‘Where’s the Love’ by Black Eye Peas, ‘Welcome to My Life’ by Simple Plan, ‘What I’ve Done’ by Linkin Park, ‘Pictures of You’ by The Last Goodnight, the recent one: ‘What about Now’ by Daughtry and SO much more! 98 percent of us are not doing anything to stop these man-made disasters. But instead, are moving along, side by side with it.

Yes, it’s true. I am a kid. This is my perception. This is OUR view! I am ‘THE DIFFERENCE’ and we are THE generations to make those differences! ‘Between justice and injustice, we shall overcome between right and wrong’. Our ‘voices should live on when some takes a stand’. I know many youngsters round the globe believe in what I see. We have written and are still probably inscribing articles, stories, poems and lyrics to really unveil the REALITY on Earth. We shall end poverty, as we are the call for human rights. Before it’s too late, we can do something about it. We have to do it now. I want to be heard. WE want to be heard!

Why do I even need to say about all this anyway? I know that’s what everyone who’s reading is thinking! What, why, who, HOW! We know all these already! We’ve all heard. I could write MY point of view BEYOND this length. But, I don’t have to. Musicians are able to enunciate their contemplation by composing songs, authors write about them and produce articles and books, journalists do reports on TV news and papers, and etcetera, etcetera. This is MY first move. The others and I plan to make changes. I’m done with this. God, bless us all at all times.

‘Think it through, do what u gotta do’

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Australian Open Has Begun...

2009-01-21T06:43:00.000-08:00

My favorite Grand Slam ever has started. I am so excited for it! Why? It's because of Jo-Wilfried Tsonga! The runners-up for Australian Open 2008. This year, I need him to win! He's my favorite player on Australian Open. He made the biggest impact last year being unseeded in the tournament, to defeating world number 2, Rafael Nadal. Now, he's ranked 5th in the world.

The way that he is so calm and casual playing Nadal last year was just simply phenomenal. A man with massive body-build alongside with solid, powerful strokes, it also comes together with the softest touch of hands. From a point, he can hit and serve over 100 kilometers per hour! And suddenly, with a slight flick of hand, he slips into an abrupt dropshot - short in front of the net, making it absolutely difficult for his opponents to get to the ball. I get a crack out of it when the announcers on Star Sports calls him Mohamed Ali.

From a family where sports is in their blood, this all-round player is back again this year to defeat the defending champion last year, Novak Djokovic currently ranked 3rd in the world. Tsonga of France has made it passed first round of the Australian Open today - beating Argentine, Juan Monaco 29th seed! I have a feeling I'll be seeing a lot of him!

My other favorite in the womens would be Dinara Safina. Haven't seen her on yet. But wishing her all the best! Keep reading =)

Did you know, one of the youngest player from Australia, Bernard Tomic is also in this Grand Slam? I just found out! I met him before and WoW he's super good now. He made it passed first round and lost the second to Muller. That was a great effort Bernard! =)

My Tsonga finally crashed out! I'm lost for words! I cannot believe it! The 5th seed, the buffy, the man, the next defending champ - has LEFT the building! =( I hope it wasn't his back injury that was affecting his game. Maybe overconfidence got to him because after he did so well in the last Australian Open, defeating Rafael Nadal. Jo-Wlfried Tsonga lost in 4 sets: 67 63 26 36 to 14th seed, Fernando Verdasco of Espanyol. He is in the running to play the semi-finals against world number One, Spaniard - Nadal! In the other quarter finals, Nadal defeated Gilles Simon in STRAIGHT sets. In the upper half of the men's singles semi-finals, will be all Spaniards. Bets of bookies are on Rafael Nadal! Will he make it? Again?

In the ladies games, Dinara Safina is still high in confidence to claim the Grand Slam title! After defeating Ausie, Elena Dokic in the quarter finals. It was not an easy match, I have to say. With Australians backing up the unseeded, definitely a lot to handle. But my girl is tough and mentally strong. She and I both hope that there was no hard feelings with the Ausies. It was a fair and square defeat. Please have her back now Ausies in her Semi Finals! I LOVE YOU SAFINA!

Dinara Safina ended up in the finals with Serena Williams, world number 2.The winner of this Open would win cash check of US$1 million and also retrieve the world number 1 postion!! Unfortunately, my favorite player got knocked out straight sets! Williams, apparently won it HANDS DOWN scoring 6-0 6-3.

For the men's singles semi finals between Nadal and Verdasco, was the most phenomenal match of the season! Verdasco was considered the Power Performer. Both lefties played for 5 hours and 15 minutes with an hour per set exactly! The match lasted until past midnight Australian time. The scores were tight and Nadal struggled just as hard as the world 14th. Verdasco hitting about a 100 winners completely stunned the spectators - not to mention Rafa! With scores 6-7 3-6 7-6 7-6 6-4, Nadal made it to the finals going against former number 1# , Roger Federer.

This was Federer's chance to finally top the record of Pete Sampras 14 Grand Slam titles. For 4 hours plus, the match played. For his first Australian Open finals, Nadal defeated Roger Federer once again, out of 13 meetings of both players! Tears of loss fell from Roger Federer as the check and massive trophy slipped away from his hands again this year. But he may ONE DAY, be back again! He will be until he breaks the record of winning titles! That concludes The Australian Open! SEE U NEXT YEAR!

By Wena (TennisGal)

I still love...

2009-01-20T00:30:00.000-08:00

I finally went tennis today, after more than a week of non-proper training, like on and off. Weather was so bad last couple of weeks — it actually flooded in the city! Last I heard, it was the worst flood ever since 19_ _ something. The rain did not stop for about 3 days. That was a COMPLETE non-stop rain.

Well anyway, there’s ITF under-14s going on now in town. Since it was raining a lot, the matches for A day are difficult to finish on the SAME day. Matches have to be resumed again if it rains. Today’s the third day of the tournament and tomorrow are Finals already. So, just when I got to the club, it rained. But it stopped after 15 minutes or so. Jane and the rest of the local players were there. Jane came up and talked to me, telling me what has been going on last few days since the tournament started. She started on about the guy she likes! haha Where did she say he was from? Vietnam? I thought he looks alright.

Then I got to meet a few of her new friends from Nepal? The courts were getting dried by the officials and my coaches. I was waiting for them to hit with me. I didn’t KNOW which court I could use, coach went all, “You wanna play, squidgy the court!” and so I did.

And basically, we started hitting. I hit with my coach at first. I am Super impressed with my strokes today! Well, I wasn’t at first cos my forehand was too ‘flat‘ and kept going out. But I had the feel today! It felt great! I don’t know if it was the crowd that were there that boost me or it’s just me having D’ feeling. =D

After that hitting, made me wish I was under 14 again and playing that kind of excellent tennis. Why didn’t I play like that before! I don’t want to be 17! Coach asked me to hit with Assri. Just stroking. I was actually RALLYING with Assri! The fast-hands, spinny Assri that I usually struggle to play his shots. But today, it was smokin’. The boy’s 1st seed of the tournament was asking how old I was, IM 16! not 17!! (yet) hoped assri got it right. Cos he was the one talking to him. =.=”

Imagine if I was playing this tournament again with this kind of tennis, I’d definitely go far. I got sick of tennis for a while last month cos I had some conflicts on court. But guess what,

I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH TENNIS!!!

Rain, You're a Torture

2009-01-10T22:57:00.000-08:00

Rain, you are a torture,

you bring nothing,

but trouble,

and sadness

to us all.

The deep colored sky,

the hollow sounds,

of non-stop drips,

makes us all, go drown under.

Don’t pour anymore,

the weather’s so cold,

let it shine again tomorrow.

Being shaded by pale, dark clouds,

under my home roof,

the feel of lost,

just wouldn’t move.

I wanna go back on courts,

to feel again my tennis strokes.

Please let it dry,

and come back another time.

Rain,

you’re a torture.